For the Boy in the Choir with Tourette’s
He slaps his face as
others take communion,
A joyful disunion
lurking in a devil’s abandon
That plays jerky havoc
with his composure;
A boy of maybe ten or
eleven, corpulent
With brown curls and a
wide open stare,
Struck into the choir
like a daring nail, who
Takes the music into
him and jabs it out
Every third bar by an
angelic shout;
I feel comforted he is
up there, exposed
For all to ignore or
mock. In a sea of doubt
And conceit and sin,
his two-faced
Demon that winks about
his eyes and mouth
Every so often with a
punch to the head
Is all the compulsion
I need to recognise
For all the love of
Jesus a rich seam of lies
Resides within the
idea of heavenly skin
Or a bag of cats roils
just beneath us all
And in this sweet
off-kilter boy is beautiful:
His stop-go body a
rock to save stiller ones,
Says every twitching
thing that crawls can sing.
Kora in Hell
If you take the
pomegranate on your tongue
you shall know love’s
soiled requirements
that keep us darkly
down
even as the world
withers above us
in fruitless abandon;
never bite
the red seeds bitterly
bursting their small loan
onto the banks of your tongue
in the wan gardens
underground
where no noon is.
To be hungry in love’s
dead halls
is to be certain of
return. To go pale
and drawn is to have
hope to arise
and be sunlit after
the dark season
in love’s grave. Do
not feast
in the gloom on the
blue shadows there
missing light. Keep
thin and alone. Love holds
you to its hiding
crest. It capes the fair
and puts a whiteness
on the blush.
It is a crush this
blue long night of being apart.
To be near the sun and
on the ground is to be alive.
But love lights darker
candles
in which a starker
irresistance thrives.
And lively we are to
Pluto who would touch upon
our vivacious glances.
The darker longing
is to keep the slim
sweet guest who never stays.
For time throws its
best toys away.
Only Plutonic
entitlement can steal a glance
and hold it there as
on a vase.
Love is desire encased
in death’s long art.
Never be devoured by
longing or you will never get out.
The fruit you are is
sweetest untaken but
will be taken down
eventually in swoon season
which is the flooding
crown when all the harvest
is a golden wave
driven into the black kingdom
as a chariot rushing
to avoid escape and love
is to bleakly look up
once at sky then drown.
when lovers dance
inside their box
the locksmith loosens all his locks
the keys with which the player plays
release the priest from what she prays
the fox outleaps the highest praise
so marriage dances on our gravest days
each ringed hand ringing as it peals
for love speaks parables of what it feels.
the locksmith loosens all his locks
the keys with which the player plays
release the priest from what she prays
the fox outleaps the highest praise
so marriage dances on our gravest days
each ringed hand ringing as it peals
for love speaks parables of what it feels.
Young Husband
I am in the room of my
marriage, when I had one.
Like a memory of a
dead long gone ancestor,
Everything is polished
with a certain conceit.
As if simply by
passing, time became right.
I can see myself in
error after error, as in
A dream that supposes
it knows more deeply
Far into the summer
heat of un-thought fire.
I want to save myself
from the burning hubris
But won’t. That is the past’s glowing blindness.
It can’t look ahead
but proudly affirms its place
At the central
magnitude where all things radiate.
I hate the mute heft
of the choices
I didn’t make; and the
summer stupor
Of the ones I
did. It didn’t amount to more.
I am the one who did
the upsetting stuff
That knocked our vases
to the floor. Vows.
All those rows, and
tears, now mummified
As if the collapse of
our civilisation was allowed
By chance and not
design. History gets formed
Like lava takes the
shape of what it flows around;
It’s messy but it
hardens soon enough
Into what is sure and
still and rough. I was there.
And so I moved about
in languid haste
As if the casual
spillage of those days would end.
Todd Swift’s
poems have been recorded in the British Poetry Archive.
He has recently curated a section of Tupelo Press' major new anthology of
world anglophone poetry, sponsored by The Poetry Foundation in
Chicago. He is included in the Oxford Companion to
Modern Poetry In English (2013). He has
published eight full poetry collections, many more pamphlets, and edited or
co-edited numerous international anthologies. He is Director of Eyewear Publishing,
and a University Teacher at Glasgow University. Photo credit Derek Adams.
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